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Growing up as the eldest of three girls, I came to hate the idea of giving birth. I heard mothers talking to each other how difficult it was during labor, how painful everything was, how they weren’t getting enough sleep and so many other complaints. Every time I heard the word pregnancy, I get goose bumps and only one word comes into mind – nuisance. I vowed never to give birth.Have you heard a baby cry at night while you are in the deepest of your sleep? I did when I was young, since I’m eight years older than my sister. I see my mom waking up in the middle of the night to change her diapers and then once more at dawn. Every time I am awake, I seem to hear nothing else except her cries. My mom says there are only three reasons a baby cries – when she is irritated, when hungry, or when sleepy. Why then is she crying all the time? I didn’t have any idea and I didn’t want to know why. |
When I was in high school, I had a friend who was so close to her mother. Do you know what her dream is? Yes, you guessed right – to be a mom. She said that her mom was just wonderful and she wanted be the same to her children. She said that all she wants in the world is to see her children grow up to be beautiful, kind and intelligent. Touching really, but I remained undaunted by her reasons, I still felt that babies are messy and are nothing but trouble. I wanted to do too many things and having a baby will only complicate the situation.
Seven years has passed since the day I graduated from high school and my friend has recently fulfilled her dream of becoming a mother. I look at her all happy and content and my heart is filled with warmth. I feel the bulge in my stomach, and I realize that pregnancy is not so bad at all.
Not after all the months I’ve been feeling her move inside me. The first time it happened, I was so happy I cried. I remember one time when she was so still inside, I was afraid that something was wrong so I went to the OB-GYN immediately. Again, I had to cry when the doctor said that she was alright.
Some people say that pregnant women experience periods of extreme joy and sorrow. I can say that this is also true for me. There are too many times I find myself in a bout of tears and I couldn’t remember why I was crying. There were also times I feel so much love for my husband and everything is perfect. I think this is a period when mothers-to-be, especially the first timers, prepare themselves to the changes that are about to happen once the baby is out. I believe this is a way of nature to make me stronger to face the challenges that lie ahead for my child and myself. When people asks me if I am happy being pregnant, I say, “Well, I am very pregnant” and smile that sweet smile to mean “Yes, I extremely am.”
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April 7th, 2008 at 5:54 am
We are very much in the same boat here… All those little ones my mom had after me–of course I love them all now, and all of them boys too!–but the process, the process seemed absolutely horrid. I did not want to be a mother, and couldn’t understand the mania I would see friends or co-workers get into. And now here I am, well, extremely pregnant. I was just looking around for general info and I stumbled onto your blog. I almost cried reading this. I hope all goes well for you, and I’ll be back around to check in on your posts
cheers
July 22nd, 2008 at 8:37 am
What makes a woman a real woman? the answer is, “through giving birth”. Every woman should pass on this stage as a payment for our mother. This kind of stage in woman’s life might be a painful one yet the happiest day in our lives because of the newly born baby that would complete the entire family.